TRUST

If someone who you trust a lot, breaks it. Would you still them back? For some reasons, whenever the trust is not there its hard to gain it back. Its like when a china porcelain is broken you can still put it back but there would be cracks in it. I asked my friend that question, she told me its a no-brainer question. For her you can still trust a person whole, 100% even though it was broken, she said just accept the fact, forgive, accept everything that will happen in the future. People has their different opinions. As for me, I don't know how to build that trust again. Maybe my friend is right. But something in my mind is convincing me that regaining trust is a difficult task.

Pain. Hurting

I don't know until when I can hold on, it is really painful. I also have my limits.

Yay!

Been waiting here at the hall of nothing for 3hours now, waiting for him to finish his work he asked me to wait here and my mobile battery is running out soon. Anyway, i dont know what to type here.. My mind is literally blank. My friend is getting married next year, my other friend just got engaged, another friend is going soon to be engaged. What's happening? Everyone is like getting married? I have friends who are still single, since birth that is. We've talked a couple of times why are they still single, they do have a nice and successful career, then why they don't have a love life? I know getting attached is something that you can't rush but then it's been years that they've been waiting. Here is where the word "destiny or fate" comes in. I've been single for 2 years straight after a 4 year relationship. I have been into several dates but none of them worked. My single friend and I planned to go on a speed dating, its not a desperate move or anything we just wanna know how it feels to be in that sitch. But we never do it. Haha! The idea of having a boyfriend was gone after i migrated to other country. Maybe because i was too excited on other things. I was happy with the company of my friends---and until now I am still happy to be friends with them. But now I am pretty much happier like 1,000,000,001% happier because I already have "HIM" beside me. Yes, after longing to have a boyfriend, finally my prayers were answered. The time we became a couple, I wasn't expecting. Now i can attest to the saying "it will just come at the least time you expect it." To my single friends: i know it sounds cliche, but it is really true. And you also have to find ways on how you could meet you love.

xoxo
yellowcharm

I am alive again!

I've been gone for quite sometime. Hmm.. not really quite. But verrrryy long time. From my previous post, I am lost. Now I can see the path. But not too clear. Still walking the path with blurry view. But then again, I am trying to walk. I hope this is the right path and I hope again to find gold at the end of this path I am walking to. 

xoxo,

yCharm.

A debt of gratitude.

But at the same time we feel afraid. Surrendering completely to love, be it human or divine, means giving up everything, including our own well-being or our ability to make decisions. It means loving in the deepest sense of the word. The truth is that we didn't want to be in the way God has chosen; we want to keep absolute control over our every step, to be fully conscious of our decisions, to be capable of choosing the object of our devotion.
-Paulo Coelho, The Witch of Portobello

I totally agree to what Paulo Coelho wrote. We want to be in control of our emotions. Of who and what to love. Even if we know to ourselves that we are loving, pouring our fullest emotions to the wrong person or situation. I don't need anyone to convince me or tell me that I am doing the wrong thing. I personally know what I am doing and what will be the outcome of this. This is not a win-win situation, so it's not a wise move to stick with this situation. I know I need to use my mind on this, and that's what I am trying to do. Convince, convince, convince myself to do the right thing. I am assessing the situation now, thinking--do I have feelings for him? Or this is just like a debt of gratitude?

He's just not that into you

Maybe this is just me, because my priorities have changed as I’ve gotten older. But now I don’t want to be “sort of dating” someone. I don’t want to be “kinda hanging out” with someone. I don’t want to spend a lot of energy suppressing all my feelings so I appear uninvolved. I want to be involved. I want to be sleeping with someone I know I’ll see again because they’ve already demonstrated to me that they’re trustworthy and honorable—and into me. Sure, in the beginning you have to be somewhat cautious about how much you give away. But that caution shouldn’t be to make them feel more comfortable; it should be because you know that you are ultimately a delicate, valuable creature who should be careful and discerning about who gets your affection. That’s what I’m doing now. And it’s not going so badly.

by: Liz Tuccillo

Just a thought.

It's the way you read the signs that determines happiness, but fate often has other plans, maybe the absence of sign is a sign.